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[netmouse]

"The problem with Livejournal is that we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other. Hence, I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you."


I don't think I posted this when it came around a while ago, but I have some new friends recently, so maybe this will be helpful. please have at. I will make a diligent attempt to answer all questions.

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[vylar-kaftan.livejournal.com]

How do you feel about your Grinnell experience, retrospectively? Positive, negative, mixed, and in what ways?

Also, if I can ask, what are your current spiritual practices?

[netmouse.livejournal.com]

How do I feel about it... hmm... it was four years. Four very different years. It started out more positively than it ended, I think. In between I had test anxiety for the first time (in physics - Mechanics), I came out as bi, I made a lot of good friendships, had moments of drama when it seemed my friends hated me or only lusted after me, didn't care, etc, had terrific insightful breakthroughs that changed who I was as a person, had a bad relationship that went on way too long and broke me in ways I am even still now discovering and trying to repair, learned how to program computers and more about how to make magic in theater and in rl, made various compromise decisions I might have made differently now if I had the chance, danced with the mad power of the May King in my veins, and graduated.

In other words, it was college.

I don't know if I have ever had spiritual practices. I was raised agnostic, and I remain to a certain extent agnostic. I believe that all that groks is god, but that doesn't seem "spiritual" to me. It's there, like physics. very much exactly like physics. I started speaking to the trees when I was a kid, and I still do that sometimes, especially when I need some guidance from someone vastly older than me. Mostly, I'm unanchored and a little lost. Every so often the universe thrills me and I worship all of it. When I pray, I pray to Diana if I want to put a face on god. Sometimes the wind tickles my palms and I am reminded I have power, or I focus on a stone to settle and find peace. Pretty random.

yours?